"The Tide Is High But I'm Holdin' On!"

On Sunday I had a piano recital. My friend that I was telling you about, Sarah, who used to help me with piano back in the day, was there. I was happy. I wore this little white dress I bought while I was at state speech and oh I know you don't care but it did make me happy! Anywho, I played Ivan Is Very Busy, by Katchaturian or however you spell his name. I did decently, I messed up on an easy part in the beginning, though, and that really bothered me. One of my friends played Bohemian Rhapsody. That is a major win for life.
I had a bio project due today. I stayed up so late writing my report last night... I really ought to do things sooner instead of procrastinate, but that's sort of what I do. I also went to TFC on Sunday. TFC stand for Teens For Christ. Honestly, it's not really my thing, I'm more into religion being sort of a personal thing, but whatever. My motives for going were not altruistic, however. One of my girl friends met this REALLY hot guy. I know, I know, this makes me a bad person, but we went to invite him and he came to TFC and wow was he hot. Think Taylor Lautner (Jacob off of Twilight series) only 16 and shorter with really blue eyes. Enough of my girlish rantings, though.
The title is from an old Blondies song called The Tide is High. If you're about my age, and a girl, you would recognize the song from the Lizzie McGuire movie as well. Do you remember Lizzie McGuire? She was played by Hilary Duff. I used to practically idolize Hilary Duff. I still listen to her CDs sometimes, just to reminisce.

"I Used to Be Love Drunk..."

"I used to be love drunk, but now I'm hungover, I loved you forever, forever is over..." This is from Love Drunk by Boys Like Girls. I happen to rather love this song, and I do seem to like Boys Like Girls.
I went to state speech this last weekend! I was in Festival, not Champs, because well you see I am not quite that good at speech. But it was ok, it was a ton of fun and I did pretty well! It was exciting. And we got to go shopping on the way there! Yay! :) I'm sorry. I just can't get rid of my girlish tendencies, and I <3>boyfriend," in what was a rather possessive tone. It was just the possessive-ness that made me laugh. Jealous girls are funny. He was so cute though...
Can you imagine me, in black eyeliner and a Slipknot shirt going down to the office to pick up a cheerleading form? Well I did. I don't think I'm going to do it. If I do, I'll have to be at school at 6:15 in the morning tomorrow. Not cool.

"I Knew You Knew..."

"I knew you knew, I knew you knew I liked you. But I figured desperate guys never had a chance with you." Desperate Guys by The Faint. I love that song!
Today was the speech tournament. It was a looong day for sure but it was definitely fun. I broke finals in both extemp and poetry, and I was super excited because not only is this my first speech meet of the year, it's my first speech meet ever! Hooray for noobs! Anywho, I did pretty well. Extemp was a little stressful for me, because I would have a lovely little speech planned out in my head, but they were too short. Also, much of the time I wouldn't exactly know what I was talking about (you draw three topics and choose the one you can best bluff your way through), and my sources didn't have information on the topics.
Also, right after we got back to our home town school, one of my friend texts me saying she got pwned by a pole because she was checking Facebook and ran into it. Don't be like my unfortunate friend, watch where you walk!

Every Pessimist Was Once an Optimist

Imagine standing up in front of your judgmental peers and an almost-as-judgmental judge and trying to put emotion into words you've only read yesterday. Or, try telling the same audience all about a topic you have had thirty minutes to think about and you very likely don't know anything about it either. That is what I will be doing tomorrow!
As uncomfortable as the situation sounds, I am excited. I have a speech tournament tomorrow and I haven't been to any this year! This means I have to be at school at 5 A.M. But I'll be doing poetry and extemp at this tournament and I hope it will be fun.
Truly, I admire optimistic people. I have slowly become more and more pessimistic, though, and it is a little disconcerting. You have all of these expectations of the world, and as you get older, more and more of them disappear because you've already been let down. Despite this seemingly depressing outlook on life, I still entertain a little moment of hopeful amusement where I think school might not be insanely freaking boring.